I’ve
started and even finished some entries but never actually saved them and I
really don’t know why but here it is.
I’m going to start, finish, save and send today.
I am done with chemo. I’ve been done for awhile, honestly I don’t
remember my last chemo date but even on my last day we didn’t know it was my last
day which is a little upsetting. I
didn’t get the end-of-chemo celebration L and I
wanted it! I think I’ve said this before
but this time around things seemed to be treated as more of a routine type
thing and it was far from routine. No
one should have to go through cancer once let alone twice. The chemo treatment itself was easier on me
but I still HAD chemo AND radiation AND 2 surgeries so far, 2 biopsies AND a
gazillion doctor appointments. Anyway,
I’m done with chemo and I suppose that’s the important thing.
The swelling I had in my arm and breast has
gone down a lot. I can wear my wedding
rings and watch and I’m not in constant pain.
The therapy helps and I continue to go once a week right
now. I also started wearing a ‘normal’
bra last weekend. Yippee right? For those of you who have to wear one every
day you’d think I’d be happy to not wear one but I kind of need one. Kind of, and kind of not since I had my
reconstruction surgery last year.
Anyway, wearing a bra is one step closer to getting back to
‘normal.’ Obviously I use the term
normal lightly and it will never mean the same thing it used to.
I
have an upcoming surgery that is scheduled for July 17th. I hesitated about the date and would like to
go a little later but the next opening is August 15th and I’m not
sure I want to wait that long. This
surgery is the one I was supposed to have last November but got postponed
because of my recurrence. It’s another
reconstruction surgery with Dr Sullivan at the fancy hospital. Dr Sullivan said it’s Stage 2 with a twist. Part of the surgery will be removing the lumpectomy scar which I think is pretty cool!
I
still have my port in and I’m not sure when I’ll get it out. My Oncologist said to leave it in for
awhile. Sweet, does that mean I might do
more chemo? Does she expect another recurrence?
Ugh, I try not to figure some things out.
I
have friends; friends’ husbands, wives or parents and kids; people I don’t know
but find out about who are dealing with cancer and I feel so bad. I pray for you and them. I can’t imagine a child with cancer. I can’t imagine Bobby dealing with this or
Micah or Helena or my mom or anyone!
Please be diligent and get things checked if you think something is
off. Don’t worry if it’s nothing,
wouldn’t that be better than if it were something?!
Tomorrow
is my 39th birthday. Holy
cow! 39!
I made it! And I plan to make
many more so consider yourself warned that I will continue to remind you.
I guess I haven't taken many pictures lately so here it is, make fun all you want!
