It's been awhile

I’ve started and even finished some entries but never actually saved them and I really don’t know why but here it is.  I’m going to start, finish, save and send today. 

 

I am done with chemo.  I’ve been done for awhile, honestly I don’t remember my last chemo date but even on my last day we didn’t know it was my last day which is a little upsetting.  I didn’t get the end-of-chemo celebration L and I wanted it!  I think I’ve said this before but this time around things seemed to be treated as more of a routine type thing and it was far from routine.  No one should have to go through cancer once let alone twice.  The chemo treatment itself was easier on me but I still HAD chemo AND radiation AND 2 surgeries so far, 2 biopsies AND a gazillion doctor appointments.  Anyway, I’m done with chemo and I suppose that’s the important thing. 

 

The swelling I had in my arm and breast has gone down a lot.  I can wear my wedding rings and watch and I’m not in constant pain.  The therapy helps and I continue to go once a week right now.  I also started wearing a ‘normal’ bra last weekend.  Yippee right?  For those of you who have to wear one every day you’d think I’d be happy to not wear one but I kind of need one.  Kind of, and kind of not since I had my reconstruction surgery last year.  Anyway, wearing a bra is one step closer to getting back to ‘normal.’  Obviously I use the term normal lightly and it will never mean the same thing it used to.

I have an upcoming surgery that is scheduled for July 17^th.  I hesitated about the date and would like to go a little later but the next opening is August 15^th and I’m not sure I want to wait that long.  This surgery is the one I was supposed to have last November but got postponed because of my recurrence.  It’s another reconstruction surgery with Dr Sullivan at the fancy hospital.  Dr Sullivan said it’s Stage 2 with a twist.  Part of the surgery will be removing the lumpectomy scar which I think is pretty cool!

I still have my port in and I’m not sure when I’ll get it out.  My Oncologist said to leave it in for awhile.  Sweet, does that mean I might do more chemo? Does she expect another recurrence?  Ugh, I try not to figure some things out.

I have friends; friends’ husbands, wives or parents and kids; people I don’t know but find out about who are dealing with cancer and I feel so bad.  I pray for you and them.  I can’t imagine a child with cancer.  I can’t imagine Bobby dealing with this or Micah or Helena or my mom or anyone!  Please be diligent and get things checked if you think something is off.  Don’t worry if it’s nothing, wouldn’t that be better than if it were something?! 

Tomorrow is my 39^th birthday.  Holy cow!  39!  I made it!  And I plan to make many more so consider yourself warned that I will continue to remind you. 

 

I guess I haven't taken many pictures lately so here it is, make fun all you want!