With 3 weeks since my last chemo, I started to forget that I
was actually being treated for breast cancer.
The first week I had some nausea, the second week it started to go away
and the third week it was gone! And
then came Day 1, last Thursday, and I was reminded that yes, I’m being treated
for breast cancer. I received my normal
Day 1 chemo cocktail of pre meds (anti nausea medicine) and the two chemo drugs
I get, Carboplatin and Gemcytobin. The
actual treatment (chair time, chemo, infusion, it can be called many things)
wasn’t bad. And I think because it’d
been 3 weeks since my last chemo the purple box with the lunch they provide
didn’t even bother me. I even went to
Cancer Yoga that evening. And I woke up
feeling ok but as time went on I noticed the queezy feeling in my stomach.
Sometimes I feel guilty for being active, doing fun things,
hanging out with friends, etc… but when I think about the alternative I try to
convince myself I don’t need to feel guilty.
I think a lot of people going through chemo spend a lot of time in bed
but all that does for me is remind me that my stomach hurts and/or that I don’t
feel good. I do have to pay attention to
my energy levels because when there’s no energy, there’s no action. I try to stay busy, possibly too busy and
perhaps I should slow it down a little but there’s no guide on how to act while
on chemo so I just listen to my body. And today has been a little rough. I asked my mom to pick up Micah and come over
for dinner because I wanted her to but it turns out I needed her to also.
I go back this Thursday for labs and my day 8 chemo. I asked and there’s nothing I can do to help
keep my white blood cells in the range that allows me to get chemo. Nothing I can eat or drink, or not eat or
drink will help. Hiding out won’t
help. Taking EmergenC or extra vitamin C
won’t help. And I won’t know anything
until I go in for labs on Wednesday.
Even last time, when my counts were off I didn’t feel any different (500 is the lowest my count can be, I was at
400. Before I started chemo my count was
around 4300.) Dr Barnhill told me to think positively for my white blood cell
count to be within the right range so that’s what I’m doing. Feel free to help out J
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